2012 was quite the year for me – both great and terrible. The last few months were dominated, as many of my friends know, by my summary dismissal from the organization which claims to be the one true OTO, after over 10 years of loyal membership. That is a phrase which, to be totally honest, I never through I’d use: “one true OTO”. It implies that there are other valid OTO’s out there. Presently there are not. The whole sordid tale will have to wait until another time, but very briefly I’d like to point out that if you look at Crowley’s writing on the subject, it’s very clear that OTO was never meant to be a “California not-for-profit corporation”. It’s an ideal towards which we aspire. Perhaps the world is not yet ready for OTO. Perhaps we, in the Thelemic community, are simply not ready to give the world this model, as we don’t have it ourselves. Before anything can be born into the world, it first must be carried for a season in the womb of our hearts. If OTO does not exist within us, it will never exist outside of us.